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  • Nov. 30th, 2009 at 11:04 PM
Firstly, it is the girls in lab.
Selfish, ignorant people.
Kept canceling the print job of my work.
Causing me to be unable to print, &
i have to walk up and down several times.
They caused me to flare.
I shouted and actually scolded them without looking at them.

Secondly, it is the bus service 67 again.
Walked to safra busstop with eugenia and weilin.
Bloody 67 driver. Is a Indian.
He actually waved and said no to me, when i was like quite near the busstop already.
What a fucker.
Messed up my day.

Actually i was a little frustrated.
i have so many things to do.
- wash clothes
- study
- go amore
- do homework

Somemore, i dont have enough sleep. And obviously i will flare up when i can no longer tolerate it. And now there are more things to be frustrated.

Why cant people be more understanding? I didnt ask for it to happen, cant you even help me a bit. Well, of course there are some who are nice people. Who are willing to lend me a helping hand. And some people just come and irritate you on some small issues despite knowing that you are busy. It is really annoying having to inform people your whereabouts and all. Esp when that person is only making use of you to accompany her to the place. And after which, she will make use of other people again to her own advantage. Leaving you behind. (pangseh)

Coming to think of it. It is really selfish of that person. To actually ask me or actually trying to persuade me to go somewhere with her when my uncle had just passed away.


Something on the brighter side,
Have been reading a book called journey to the underworld.
It is actually a real story, the details of the story is gathered by a medium called Yang sheng (Sheng xian tang temple in taiwan) with Jigong. Their task is to gather as much information as possible to help human beings to do lesser sins.

After reading half of the book, i realised, i have sinned deeply already. hahaha.
- wasting of food
- and one more i am not going to say.

In order to compensate
- publish 10,000 of the book and distribute.
- swear to god i wont do it again.

What is troubling is that, we are humans, we wont know when will we commit such sin again. Especially when i am still so young, i will not know what will i do next time. Sigh.

Oh another thing which we might most probably commit is backstabing of people in order to gain merit from boss. This is one sin which is rather common in the hospitality sector i guess.
This is life.

Btw, if you do not believe in the book or what, pls do not curse or say anything negative. Cos it is stated in the book that if you show disrespect to the book, you will be send to hell too! And worst of all, my cousin actually spill coke on the side of the book...

7th day

  • Nov. 29th, 2009 at 3:43 PM
Saturday was the 7th day.
Meaning my uncle soul would come back to his house.
Went over to stay over.
Everyone was quite scared. But did not admit it.
Actually i was one of them, but i really want to feel his presence.

And so, my wish came true.

Could not sleep the whole night. Was turning here and there.
And in the middle of my restless night,
Suddenly, there was a cool coool breeze which really sent chills running down my spine.
Then, i feel something pressing down onto me for a while.

The next thing i felt is that,
Chill ran half way down my spine.
I feel someone standing behind me.

Real or Unreal ?
You need to feel it yourself in order to believe it.

7th day

  • Nov. 29th, 2009 at 3:42 PM
Today is the 7th day.
Meaning my uncle soul would come back to his house.
Went over to stay over.
Everyone was quite scared. But did not admit it.
Actually i was one of them, but i really want to feel his presence.

And so, my wish came true.

Could not sleep the whole night. Was turning here and there.
And in the middle of my restless night,
Suddenly, there was a cool coool breeze which really sent chills running down my spine.
Then, i feel something pressing down onto me for a while.

The next thing i felt is that,
Chill ran half way down my spine.
I feel someone standing behind me.

Real or Unreal ?
You need to feel it yourself in order to believe it.

Damned.

  • Nov. 29th, 2009 at 3:37 PM
Sometimes, you have to do it all yourself. Friends wont be there to help you or be with you. sometimes, it is better to look after yourself first. Cos, some people wont even bother to remind you, or perphaps they forgotten. PERPHAPS. At times like this, you will know who cares. And who dont. Sometimes it is frustrating having to face them, despite knowing that they arent good people.

Sometimes, people make use of you. Unfortunately you have no choice but to allow them to do so. Life is tough. Having to face these people again and again.

Sometimes, you even have to help these people, but never expect them to do the same for you. Because they wont.

First day at wake.

  • Nov. 23rd, 2009 at 12:55 AM
He looked so different in the coffin. Everything is so surreal now. Each and everyone of the realtive who came all cried. This is like so tragic.
24 hours ago, he had not died yet, everyone is happily enjoying themselves at the wedding dinner.
24 hours later, everyone is crying at the wake.

( Even when my grandma died, it wasnt so bad. Maybe cause my grandma is old. and my uncle isnt that old. )

Each time a relative come to visit, my aunt would cry and talk about what exactly happened. This makes me cry too. It is just so crazy. He was fine a day ago! But now, he is lying in the coffin. Not moving at all. My Echang papa now looks so different. Different from the picture. Different from my memories.



have been listening to 'how deep is your love - bee gees'
many many times. And finally i am sick of it. A little.

What a fragile life.

  • Nov. 22nd, 2009 at 2:14 PM
Just a day alone, so many unexpected events can happened.
At 10plus, he was still fine, talking to me,
joking to me on "how do i look like when i drink Brandy?"
(he used to be a regular drinker but now he had cut down alot.)
All of us are attending some close relative wedding dinner at Sentosa Spa and Resorts.

At 11plus, His wife called, telling us they are stuck in a jam. And she didnt believed that we had reached home. So i said, why dont i call your hp from house. Everything is still fine.

Until, 12 plus am.
My mum playng mahjong on the com.
My dad just about to get some sleep.
And me, doing my Fnb project.

my mum picked up a call from my cousin, i dont know what was going on, cos my mum was like screaming into the phone. Then the phone rang again. My mum went screaming into the phone again, This time, i went out, my dad woke up, asking what happened.

mum: "Your E-chang papa fainted, ahyi and xiao boy cant wake him up! quick call ambulance and your ah ku."

Then i called my uncle who is like sleeping. And then everything just happened so quickly, my mum, dad and ah ku went straight to my ahyi house. But apparently, they already went to the hospital.

And i was like busy doing fnb until 2plus am, and i realised why no one called to update, so i decided to call my dad,
(background)aunt:" wake up! wake up!"
And my dad just announced to me that my uncle had just passed away.

and i was like wtf. so sudden, initially, i still cannot absorb the news. So i didnt cry. But a few mins later, i got it. He died. He really died. He cant wake up anymore, The man whom i used to be so afraid of when i was young, and now that i have grown up, i was much closer to him and my aunt, has passed away. The man, who is like my second dad, is dead. And he haven even reach 60.

And suddenly alot of things just came to my mind.
- My kor, His elder son is still travelling in Australia.
( And he still doesnt know about his dad's death)
- xiao boy, his younger son is still having A levels.
- my aunt& family in the midst of moving house. wtf. how now ?
- is my aunt going to have to work full time next time?

Finally dad came home at 430am. He said, it was a heart-attack. btw, my uncle only had high-blood.

My stupid Fnb how ? i totally got no mood to think of how to do. I still need to go to the wake later on, And i haven heard any news from my aunt, i want to know how is she now.

Someone close to you

  • Nov. 17th, 2009 at 10:10 PM
Have you ever felt close to someone the first time you met them ?

(But this is not love ok! As in those love, LOVE. this is just a normal close and attach feeling.)

I do man. And this is weird, Especially for someone cazy like me, who lets her imagination run wild! lol.

RANDOM POST!

I LOVE AMORE <3

  • Nov. 17th, 2009 at 9:50 PM
XOXO Amore!
hahaha, went to Amore today! Didnt really excercise much, cos i was like thinking about my japanese presentation. And tmrw we are going for Pilates beginner! cool man. I'm so gonna be exer-ho-lic. LOL. And i havent finish my jap presentation which i need to present in like 12 hours time. LOL. hahah cool man. lol.

Anyways, today damn high! keep making jokes and laughing all the way! lol.

Eventful Sunday

  • Nov. 15th, 2009 at 7:33 PM
Woke up at 9 plus. Nua-ed my bed until 10 plus. Had breakfast- WANTON MEEE !!!
Sat comfortably on the sofa. Then Bathe.

Watch The Legend Of Bruce Lee. Like finally today is the last episode. And he died just like that. Like no exact reason to his death. But quite touching. Received an sms from layting, She is not going to amore at 1. Instead her trainer changed it to 5 or 6. So i went there without her.
Valerie is late like 15 mins. Actually i some what expected it. Since she doesnt like to wait for ppl. Anyways, I did my usual routine at gym. Cycle and then followed by tread-milling. lol. Then steam. And for dont know what reasons, the steaming room is like damn damn hot. Bathed and went to Pasir ris to meet my mum dad aunt uncle and another aunt. (lol. Its so funny how i described it.)

And now i am here blogging when there is a communication skills2 test tmrw. And i haven done my F&B tutorial yet. Also, Fantastic Four is showing now~ Sighhh... Though i watched before already. But since its so nice, i feel like watching it again. And i haven decide whether to go to amore tmrw. Cos sch ends at 6pm. :( 


Amore Forth day

  • Nov. 12th, 2009 at 9:59 PM
hmm, Went to Amore after lecture.
& lecture ended early! so yayness!!

ate at carls junior, finally got my Portebello Burger! very expensive!!! but today is indulgence day. lol. So i ate la. And i also ate Hokkien mee for dinner with chicken wings. LOL. seriously i think i indulge too much.

And today, at Amore, i almost fainted. LOl. as in seriously. I got a sudden migraine that lasted for a min. Or half a minute which i dont remember. Went for Stretch Fit lesson. Quite fun and interesting. After which i do my usual routine at Gym. And i realise i was too tired/exhausted to lift any thing. lol. So i just went for cycling and tread-milling. Ohh and waited for layting to come. And we went to the steam room together!! hahah. First time. Oh and i wore my contacts in. Cool right. hahah.

Anyways, i am trying to learn how to control my temper and thoughts.
I realised its tiring to think of how to deal with people. lol.

Frustrated.

  • Nov. 10th, 2009 at 11:07 PM
Why doesnt some ppl just get it?
Why is it so diff to understand ?
I just want to be alone!
I dont like your company. Stupid bitch.

Now you are acting like a angel, and i am the devil, since when do you talk so nicely, who knows you might just copy and paste to someone else to show that i got attitude. lol. Whatever the case, i cannot stand it anymore. I dont like to be stuck to someone who got attitude problem.

I feel like i am being tricked into a trap and now, i am being trapped.
Cannot escape from the DEVIL'S clutches

Problems.

  • Nov. 9th, 2009 at 10:37 PM
Got myself in Deep shit.

Someone just resembles the shit to me, And there are many files around it. Blind Flies.

I need someone to talk to. Someone who will listen and give advice.

Amore day 2

  • Nov. 8th, 2009 at 8:07 PM
Planned to go to Amore at 3 so that we can join the new body class. And we actually made a fool of ourselves. lol. We went into the class, and when the class start we realise we cannot catch up. So we left! lol. hahah. so malu. Anyways, after which went to the gym.
  • cycled for 100 calories
  • treadmill for 150 calories
  • pull pull for 50 calories
  • circuit station. (anyhow)
Very Very Very exhausted, i feel like sleeping now.
And i ate quite a lot today.

Breakfast = pork porridge + one quarter of "butterfly"
Lunch = 2 slices of bread with nutella
Dinner = mee sua with vege and a little pork.


- 2 macarons from bakerzin. (hazelnut and pistachio)
- Peanuts. quite a few mouth. lol.

Shoot man. ate so much today!!

Amore day 1

  • Nov. 6th, 2009 at 10:22 PM
Went to Amore after school today. Signed up already. Sometimes i feel abit scam. Cos, the person did not tell us about the GST. So its like the total price plus 7%GST. in the end the price is like 233. Damn lor. But nvm. i am going to make full use of their equipment. LOl.

After i sign up, and with Xy and valerie going straight to the gym w/o waiting for me. thanks lor. HAHAH. hmm, den we started with the gym. like abit noob like that, because we did not really know how to use some of the equipment. Then we finally settled down. Actually i think only i settled down. lol.
  • i cycled (using the stationary bike) for about 20 mins ? 100 calories lost. LOL
  • treadmill 2.4km in 20 plus mins.
  • after which i anyhow use the equipments. :)
  • Ohh then we went for stretch fit lesson, quite difficult. but not bad.
  • went back to gym to do strength training for awhile more.
  • Bathe
  • Ate subway
  • Go home.
Going back on sunday for Yoga. Excited man!!

Decision Made.

  • Nov. 5th, 2009 at 4:12 PM
Went home super early today. Cos there are only 2 lectures today. Fortunately, they start early and end early. hahahhh.
Reached home at 1pm. Shiokness.

Decided to join Amore, Using my own $$ which means i am going broke. lol.
I'm going to have to save $5 everyday so as to be able to pay the fees. Not that i cant pay with money in the bank just that i dont wish to use the money in my bank. Going to have to scrimp and save and learn time management. Actually i'm very confused as to go or not. But its like 89% want to go. So i think i will go right.

Anyways, something on the brighter sight,
I saved $10 today. WEE.

Ate alot of sweets. lol. and erm spaghetti. For now, i can forsee myself eating Tiramisu and maybe dinner and fruits.

Alrighty, going to study marketing now. i am lagging behind. Same for macroecons. Which totally sucks.

food.

  • Nov. 4th, 2009 at 11:11 PM
Forget to post what i ate today. lol.

1. hotdogs with bread. 2 slices.
2. pork chop with apple sauce <3 + teh ice
3. a cup of tiramisu

OMGGG cant believe it !!!! i ate so little today ?? wow. fantastic.
I must be thinking too much about Amore money issues. hahah. GREAT.

Stupid,

  • Nov. 4th, 2009 at 9:47 PM
Had Japanese tutorial , marketing and Commskills2 PBL today. Quite a sucky day.

1. Had jap tutorial and the tutor made us sit according to our register number which means i cant sit with my very clever groupmates. And now i am sitting with someone who thinks she knows a lot. and on my other side, someone who cant really prononce it properly. I'm not being bad or what but thats really the truth i guess. I even overheard the "clever" one saying that she cant even pronunce it. Something like that, if i didnt hear wrongly.

2. Marketing was quite fun. Our imagination really went wild. hahah, for the first time i think i gave something very constructive.

3. Comm skills2 was the most suckiest. Ms K has conflicting ideas. First she suggested that when we are presenting she will keep quiet. But she went and blab non stop today during valerie's presentation. And caused Valerie to take up the whole 30 mins. Worst of all, she talked too much causing us to come in later by 7 mins, and MY GROUP left on time for the next.
Conclusion is: my group had 7 mins lesser than others AND we still had alot left to present

4. Went to Amore today, with Xy and Valerie. And The worsest of the worsest, Valerie and I paid for the deposit. Despite thinking so much, we never thought that our parents wont allow us to go. So the problem ? not settled. 

*I bought the latest book Tempted.
(i have decided if i am going to have to pay for Amore or if i am not going, I AM GOING TO ASK MY DAD TO PAY ME.

angry with him cause he kept saying i go Amore cos i want to follow people. like wth.

Food Fiesta.

  • Nov. 2nd, 2009 at 9:34 PM
These are the things that i have eaten today.

1. hotdog bun and coffee
2. Lontong and peach tea
3. half a packet of vegetable mixed rice (calamari, gu lu yok, long beans and cabbage)
4. a cup of "not ready" tiramisu
5. apples and some kiwi
6. Another cup of freezing Tiramisu.


oh my goodness right.. Wahlaoooo i'm supposed to be on a diet and should be running. not eating madly like this. HOLY.
Still remember the other time i had my apples + papaya + pineapples Diet, It was so cool. And i lost 2kg in a week. Without doing exercise. cool right. Damn it man. Now its all wasted. I am going to do 100 situps later.


- "Angela Siew i dont care how you are going to do it. you are going to do 100 sit-ups later. on your bed!"

school starts.

  • Nov. 2nd, 2009 at 8:46 PM
Cant believe it. My brain is actually failing me almost all the time- i just cannot seem to remember to blog. LOL.

ok i must persevere to blog only happy things. Though nowadays there are like so many unhappy events, we ought to be positive!
Nowadays i feel like i am such a ass. I know why, but i am not saying it. heee. sigh~ So many things to rush. So many things to think. So many things to do. Need to find someone nice to talk to. For examples, group proj members, to choose who and the proj to do. The assignments to tackle. But surprisingly, i have the pump to study and do my assignments. hahah i want to achieve a GPA of at least 3.5.

I feel like running and making a difference in my weight-style. hahahha. but i doubt that day would ever come. Come to think of it. Its pretty funny, there is this one day when i was walking home. And suddenly i just thought to myself "Would i one day finally get to lose weight ?"  And i answered myself like in a very uncontrollable way. NO. lol. and to think i was actually laughing at myself at that point of time. This is so hilarious.

Btw, i got into entreprenership of some blah blah interdisciplinary project. &Japanese language and culture for my CDS. And for that jap cds, i need to do a presentation in 2 weeks time. on what you know ? 





NIHON NINGYO


i bet you dont know what is it. Unless you take Jap CDS.


JAPANESE DOLL (THOSE THAT ARE USED DURING RITUALS AND REALLY ANTIQUES ONES.)


And so lucky la me, i dont even know what the hell isit. and even after i got that one and only book. i still dont really quite know how to do my presentation. Because, i have no freaking idea how to link it back to singapore. And yes, i have used google, Msn, Yahoo, and i dont really get any information. sigh. think i gonna just boom it.


OOHHyahhh, on my previous post, i mentioned i was looking for the ingredient to make tiramisu right, And TADAAArRRR
I'VE DONE IT! twice. today is my second try. Actually i think it taste better than those that are sold outside. hahah. ok.

The reason why i rmb and decided to blog is because i've just read someone's blog. And its really damn damn emo. And it reminds me of my previous blog. Its full of vulgarities. HAHAH. sad uh. but anyway at least i made the effort to change. and finally to remove that blog.

working.

  • Oct. 18th, 2009 at 4:30 PM
have been working for 4 straight days. from wednesday till yesterday. 12 hours straight for the last 2 days. damn tired. My legs seems to be cramping. lol. hope that i can earn more moneyyy. lol.
money money money, must be funny. lol

Just came back from some yum cha thingy. some relative wedding. And there will be a wedding dinner at Orchard Hotel. Weee! hahah gonna grow fat. I'm gonna start to lose weight when school starts. Gela please! lose weight. lol. Finally there is a chance to wear that Dorothy Perkins Dress. lol. SEXY. hahahah joking. and heels. lol. still needa lose weight la. If not wear anything also not nice.

And i am wondering now, when will i finish my spaghetti and when will i get to make tiramisu. lol. I already bought that Lady Finger biscuit for tiramisu. hahahha. still short of sweet wine.

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